Started packing things up today. Insert standard nostalgic paragraph about how I'll miss this crazy old house, creaky floors and all. One bonus to being an unemployed slacker is that my pets are doing great! They are so loved and pampered it isn't funny. They are eating it up. They are a lot more responsive to me now than they ever were before, and some of their irritating behaviors (whining, begging) have almost disappeared. I should probably be taking some time each day to train them a little better. Hm.

The husband-person just got home, boy, he's in a funk. Maybe I'll go out for a bit tonight, I think I may need a change of scenery. The man was in a funk last night too. We always talk things out, one of the reasons I married him - he is a level-headed guy) so I'm not sure what's up with him. Oh well. If he wants to talk, he'll talk. Maybe he just had a bad day.

Come to think of it, a long walk might do me some good.

I have no focus. Slacking is cool, but I am getting bored.

My big priority should be getting a job after we move in about 2 weeks. My last job (at the sick cube farm I just left) was a boring, aggravating middle-management job. My position before that was an Executive Director for a non-profit organization, and it was my dream job. I was the boss - I didn't have anyone looking over my shoulder or telling me how to work. I left only when I was being asked to work far too many unpaid overtime hours.

I got used to that dream environment and it's almost impossible for me to go back to being managed. So my hope is that I can find some way of sustaining myself, an enjoyable way, preferably, and one that would allow me to live comfortably. I wish I knew what I wanted to do. /slacker

I would like to get paid to write, but that means that I would have to, you know, write. And who has time for that? This World of Warcraft ain't going to play itself, you know.

Date:	2006-05-08 16:56
Subject:	Procrastination, my Nemesis
Security:	Public
Mood:	lethargic

Today I did a lot of nothing.

I am in my early thirties and just left my last job in a grey cube farm. My husband and I are moving to the East Coast, so I have been blessedly unemployed for the past 3 weeks.

I have so many great ideas and plans for the future, and I really could have gotten a lot done in those 3 weeks. But...no. I filled my endless, unemployed hours playing World of Warcraft, reading Fark.com, playing with LiveJournal, watching The Young Ones on DVD over and over and over, and so on. I did write a 10 page story, however it's really horrible.

I make slacking an art form. I slack so much, I get BORED of slacking. It's freaking insane.

It's Sunday morning!

I love weekend mornings. You have the whole day ahead of you to goof off.

My husband and I don't have kids, just 2 dogs and 2 cats, so our weeekends are pretty free. I play a lot of games on the weekends. I love World of Warcraft, but lately I'm going back to the game Black & White, which I love and I've never defeated. I love gaming, I'm just not very good at it. No - I'll rephrase, I AM good at games, but I am not a P0wAr P1ay3r - I take my time levelling and it's not all about Phat L00t with me. I like the gaming experience.

We are in the process of moving. We just bought a little trailer in Pennsylvania (let the jokes ensue)! It will be a temporary place to live while we shop for land to build our dream home. I want acres and acres - the man does not. We'll need to find a happy medium.

I want goats and horses and geese - really, any damn animal. The man does not. I'll need to wear him down on that one. :)

Speaking of wearing him down, we had good sex last night which makes me happy, since my sex drive has been in the shitter for years, I could really go months without it. I read a really good article on pornography that was very enlightening to me, and has changed how I view sex, just enough to give me more confidence and help me get over a few hangups.

The weird thing is that the article is on the negative effects that porn can have on women, and on society. I thought it would be some crazy "Focus on the Family Asshat" article, but instead it was really well-written, and simply stated facts about the studied effects of porn, rather than sling the "Good Christian Values" bullshit that pretty much makes me want to do whatever it is Pat Robertson tells us is evil. Which is, apparently, everything except war, assassination, and sending him pots of cash.

I've always been pro-porn, pro-safe sex, pro-women doing anything they choose with their bodies, even if that means shaking it for cash, more power to the lovely ladies! But this article had to force me to face some "demons". Firstly, if I claimed to love sexual freedom so much, why wasn't I having much sex? Secondly, for as LIBERAL as I am, for as much as I believe that consenting adults should be free to do whatever the hell they damn well please as long as it's not harming others, couldn't I admit to myself that there are some things that I don't have to really "accept" when it comes to sex?

I could go on, but the point is that I learned some things about myself, and those things helped me to move forward in a positive way.

http://english.ohmynews.com/ArticleView/article_view.asp?no=288787&rel_no=1

Date:	2006-05-07 00:56
Subject:	Creation!
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful

Journal created and...I have entirely nothing to post.

It's 12:59 am, I'm tired, and I don't want to go to sleep. I've got all sorts of thoughts whooshing around in my brain like little stars, but pinning them down into a livejournal post is harder than it seems.

Welcome to my journal, it's open to all! Please feel free to comment. I'm a 32 year-old married woman who gets a kick out of being a little different. I like learning about people, and I like learning about life!